Over the week end I spent with
sunvenus which we dedicated to Magick, companionship and the Thelemic Holy Days.
We performed a number of operations to clear old ties and bonds, as well as open our new order and lodge. The Alchemical Temple of Will and Lodge Infinte Stars.
We had manifestations of energy, excellent Trance work, as well as sharing with each other, helping each cope with problems we are facing in the fashion of true friends, she is an absolutely wonderful Friend, Sister, Priestess and Comforter.
She was able to help me forget about a some health problems that I have been recently experiencing and having trouble ignoring until tests results come back. It was very healing for me, and helped me gain a much needed new perspective on my life, to face the on coming ordeals. Thank You Sister
I have been diagnosed with a form of cancer and am now waiting for the Biopsy results to tell if it is malignant. -- Fear is the mind killer says the line in Dune, and By The Gods it certainly is, even for one who generally has a fairly positive outlook on Death. I have had a number of close calls in the past.....
sunvenus helped me to regain that outlook and let go of most of the fear. (A little I think is perfectly Natural) Though on the Night I returned home I had a turn that is not related the original diagnosis and has now set off another scare... People do not have Fits for no bloody reason, yet I have.. CT Brain Scans now this morning to see what is going on.... Fear is returning but at least this time it is not mind numbing. What ever happens will happen, I can do what is needed both Magickaly and in the Mundane to ensure all goes well.
So why this raving.. putting things into words helps me clear my head, and solidify my thoughts.. Sorry not good reading.